in the past two weeks, I’ve been continuously wondering:

how does it feel to not want things?

to live comfortably, with contentment on your own nest.. without ever wondering what the big world could offer.. or what is left to be explored..

how does it feel like to not know…

As the leaves started to change colors into a somewhat autumn-looking, it was not a peculiar sight anymore that people are caught wearing extra layer of clothes, preferably the waterproof one. It rained again this morning, the paved road got all soggy with wet leaves and fallen branches. …

No matter how hard it is, promise yourself to never lose your voice.

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Being caught up in prolong discomfort may bewilder us from distinguishing the good that comes out of it. Is it something you can tolerate? Is it the new normal you have to live up to…

Over a phone call, I told a friend about my deepest fear in the most nonchalant way; I think I’m so gonna regret it, supposed I realise in the future, I got my untapped potential go wasted. Only to find out this realisation appears to be very scary when I’m…

Selama beberapa waktu ini, aku seringkali termenung, membayangkan beratnya perjuanganmu selagi masih ada. Entah mungkin berapa banyak hal yang menyakitimu, selagi kau mengais rejeki untuk kami. Entah seberapa banyak rintangan yang perlu kau lewati, batas yang kau tembus, karena engkau menginginkan kehidupan yang lebih baik untuk kami.

Ayah, aku rindu.

Terkadang, Tuhan menuntunku menyusuri jalanan yang tak kukenal. Di tengah perjalanan, seringkali aku menghela nafas, bertanya, ‘Mengapa? Untuk apa?’ seolah berteriak pada ruang hampa udara, kegelisahanku tak selalu dijawabNya di detik yang sama.

Terkadang, Tuhan menunjukkan jawabanNya seiring berjalannya waktu. Ada saat di mana aku tertegun akan kompleksitas skenario Tuhan…

Remember the days when you put on your brand new high heels, and it so happens that you got to walk more than 10k, or stood all day long during a workshop?

Or can you reckon a day when you went on a solo business trip, with a 4 a.m…

Teruntuk Ayahku terkasih,

Jauh nian aku dari rumah, tempatmu beristirahat. Jauh sekali rasanya, bukan hanya karena kita dipisahkan hempasan benua dan samudera, tapi karena perlahan, aku mulai ketakutan,

aku semakin lupa bagaimana harum tubuhmu.

Menginjak tahun keempat, memang rasanya lebih mudah terbawa suasana dan mengalihkan rasa sedih dan hampa yang…

Nisa

on befriend the unknown.

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